Sunday, November 14, 2010

Relax

Don't you just love when babies do this? Sleep with their arms or hands sticking out. It makes me want to tell them to relax.
This something I have had to tell myself a lot. For some reason (maybe it is because I never went to the hospital) i keep feeling like I should be recovered and back to my good old self. But I am not. i still have some recovering and sleeping to do. I have to force myself to lay down and take a nap sometimes because there is so much around me that needs to be done. I try to tell myself to relax, cause it will get done...someday.

I have also had to make myself chill out over nursing. Nursing was something I was determined to do but because extremely painful because he was not latching right and frustrating because no matter how many times I tried I could not get him to latch right. I found myself getting very emotional over the whole thing (like crying for days at a time). I was also getting to be very snappy with my other children and just felt awful about myself. I decided in the long run, nursing just wasn't going to work for me and this baby. And while it is a decision that still makes me sad, it has given me peace. So for now I am pumping and he gets formula every once in awhile. It is very hard for me to buy something that my body can make for free, but I just try not to think about that.

4 comments:

Elyse said...

I hear you on the nursing...I've been very emotional over my own nursing woes these days. Joseph is adorable! We can't wait to meet him! It's been too longs since we've gotten together!

Julie and Stephen Barnes said...

I hear ya! Hard to relax with a new born around. I am hoping to relax about nursing this go around. I was so up tight about it with Edward... here is hoping this soon to be new little guy will get the idea and just latch. Have you tried a nipple shield?? That helped Edward a lot and cut out half the frustration I was feeling after I couldn't get Edward to latch on...

tamir said...

He's so precious!
And Debbie, don't feel bad! Nursing doesn't work for every child! Finally deciding formula for my 1st after 1 month of stressful nursing was one of the best things I did. I was so much happier after that. And as long as you're feeding your baby something you're doing great! Though props to you for pumping as well! You're doing a great job Debbie! Hope you catch up on as much sleep as you can!

Sarah Millington said...

I'm proud of you for making your choice and moving on. Don't feel bad for doing what is best for your family!
Lately I've been trying so hard to live more in the moment and do what's the best thing to do "right now". It has been immensely helpful because I don't have to worry so much about what's not getting done. Just remember, you have eternity to learn and do things. You can enjoy your baby and enjoy your time to rest and recoup.
Very sweet baby, by the way!

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