Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Being a Mom

All I wanted when I was younger was to grow up and be a mom. Now I am. I think the thing that shocked me the most about becoming a mom was that I am not good at it. I guess I just assumed that since I wanted it so bad that I would be good at it, that it would come easily. (This is a very hard thing for me to admitt.) It is not easy for me. I struggle and pray for patience everyday. I love them so much and I think that is what makes it so hard. I only want the best or them, and I am not the best. But I am trying.
Days like Mothers Day help me to remember and see all the wonderful examples of mothers that I am surrounded by. I don't think it is easy for anyone. Maybe easier for some but never easy. It is just the nature of the job. There are so many mothers out there that are teaching me and helping me to be better - especially my own.
All that is best about me was taught by my mother. And I hope someday my kids will be able to honestly say the same.

6 comments:

Lex said...

This is comforting in a strange way Deb! I of coarse want to be a mom but am terrified that I will get to that point and draw a huge 20 year blank as to what to do.

Lindsey & Brett said...

Debbie, the fact that you don't think being a mom is easy doesn't show through AT ALL. I am always amazed at how good you are at all things "motherly." Just how much your kids obviously love you is a testament to what a great mom you are. :)

Kirsten said...

It is great to hear someone be so honest about the fact that wanting something and being good at it are not always the same thing.

Of course, I know what William and Gracie and Russ know -- you are an _amazing_ mom! Erin and I talk often about what an generous, compassionate and creative mother, friend, mentor, daughter-in-law, sister-in-law, you are and how lucky we feel to have you in the family.

I often am convinced that I am the worst influence on my boys. I just take comfort in knowing that we are just asked to take it a day at a time, and we don't have to do it alone. We have divine help there for the asking, as you say, and so many wonderful mothers around us imperfect yet beautiful, realistic, honest examples of what motherhood is and can be. You are one of mine.

Adriana said...

It's interesting to hear this... for our Mother's Day talk... it started out that nobody wants to give mother's day talk, because it's a day to point out your imperfections as a mother...
I had never heard somebody refer to it this way... which made me start thinking about how imperfect I was
so it's just nice to know that others sometimes feel this way, too and I know (through your blogs( that this is not the case)! I guess we do the best we can :)

Jacie said...

Debbie you are a great mom because you are so good at enjoying the moment with your kids. I personally think that is one thing that will really count years from now. I wish I was more like that. You put my feelings into words perfectly. I never thought it would be so hard to be good mom. I guess I thought if I wanted something so bad I would be good at it. Boy was I naive!

Sara Jane Baldwin said...

I think you make a very cute mom, Debbie. I can only imagine how difficult it must be; but I agree with the other comments: motherhood seems to suite you naturally and pleasantly. :)

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