I got home and my eyes and head hurt from crying,
my back hurt from sitting in hospital chairs,
my mind hurt from thinking heavy thoughts,
my knees hurt from praying (not literally, but you know what I mean)
but most of all my heart hurt for my brother and his sweet wife. I wish I could take this away.
Ashley and I got pregnant at the same time and come march, neither if us will have a baby to hold. That's HARD. But we will both be okay.
I took as many pictures as my battery would let me. Why oh why did I not charge my battery the night before! I love baby Miles.
here he is by his Daddy's handand here is his hand by his aunt Debbie's finger.Russ saying goodbye.Russ holding him without all the tubing. He is such a handsome baby. His nose is so defined for a baby, let alone a baby that is not fully developed. Last night I was trying to explain to William that he died and that is a concept that is really hard for him to understand. I told him that his body was still here but that his spirit was in heaven with Heavenly Father and Jesus and he said, "oh, is Heavenly Father holding him?" and I said yes and he said, "that's happy." Yes William it is. I may have told a white lie. I don't actually know that Heavenly Father is holding him. From what I understand his parents are the ones he needs to hold more right now, and I think he is.